Empty Seats and Blown Chances

I have a spot that I usually sit at during church, week end and out the same spot. It provides me a good view of the congregation and allows me to peak out the door seeing anybody who is walking in the halls either late or leaving the ward before mine.

Yesterday I was walking into the chapel and the guy that has been the bane of my existence was sitting in my row, talking to a guy. I saw him, waved and then proceeded to sit two rows back from normal.

I thought that he would just talk to the guy and then leave to go sit up with his clique that he sits with every week now.  He did go up to talk to his clique and then he returned to the spot that he was sitting.

I sat there and thought a few things.

 Did he purposely sit there so that I would sit next to him?

It was just a happenstance and he just decided to sit there instead of his usual spot with his clique?

Did I send him a wrong message by sitting away from him on purpose, even though I have been wishing that he would acknowledge me in some way (since he joined this clique, I have fallen off his social radar, but he did ask me to say the closing prayer, so at least he did think of me ever so briefly.)

Did I just blow a huge chance?

But he could of easily said HI to me too, he did go and acknowledge his clique.

So what are your thoughts on the above situation?

8 BNL Concerts 125 pounds

 Looking at my old photos I could track my weight loss journey through the pictures I took when I went and saw the Barenaked Ladies. In a two year time I went to 8 concerts of theirs and lost 125lbs.

 

This is a picture of me the day I saw my very first Barenaked Ladies concert ever, November 3, 2007. This is a just a picture for base comparison.  

 

July 25th 2010- Phoenix

 

October 29, 2010 Tucson

October 30,2010 Albuquerque

I had gastric by-pass surgery March 7th, 2011

I didn't go on Ships and Dip that year so that I could pay for it.

 

May 27,2011 Las Vegas

90lbs lighter

  

September 16th, 2011 Thousand Oaks, California

September 17, 2011 Newport Beach

110lbs lost

 

 

July 25th 2012- Phoenix

July 27, 2012- Las Vegas

125lbs lost .

 

 

March 7th 2013

Holding steady and still loving the Barenaked Ladies. It has been a long journey and I am glad that I took that first step.

Snickers Flirt

Today I was feeling a little sassy and I went on a walk with a dear friend who is getting married next week. We have spent many of late nights walking and talking and I thought it would be nice to do it one more time before she is a married woman. On our walk we past the store that my "friend" works at. I thought it would be fun to just drop by. So we walked into the store and I went into the candy aisle and picked up a king size snickers bar. The friend whom I was on the walk with protested thinking it was for me, and I went no, it's for him.
I paid for it and walked to the back of the store where he works and I slid it across the counter to him saying "Happy last day of work." and took off. My friend I giggled as we were walking towards the front door and she was like "you should of stayed and talked to him." As we were about to walk out of the store, I heard over the intercom "Michelle please report to the back of the store"
We just laughed our heads off.
So we came back and the "friend" asked me if I paid for it!
I am like "Yes, friend I stole a candy bar just for you."
and he went "I just wanted to make sure that I could eat it and you just didn't pick it up for me to put it back."
We talked a little bit more but I slyly walked away. It was a good little flirt.

The Tale of Two Michelles

 

 

I go to a lot of concerts. I just love live music and interacting with the crowds. Every concert I go to I tend to make fast friends with those around me. I recently went to one concert and I had about a 15 minute conversation with a girl about her music internship and our mutual experience with being on street teams for record companies. I asked another girl who was in front of me if I could take a picture of her tattoo, she was impressed that I knew where it was from. I have made a lot of friends from going to concerts and I like the person I am when I go. I am outgoing, fun and talkative.

 

 

 

 

 

 But when it comes to church, I am shy. I sit in the same seat every Sunday. I sit there and observe the ward and don’t go out of my way to make friends anymore. Maybe it’s due to the fact that I don’t have much time left, or that I am tired of finally making friends and then they leave and I am yet again alone. Or maybe the fact is that I still have to see these people week end and week out and those I meet in the concert I will never see again so it doesn’t matter what impression I make on them for I will probably never see them again in my life. I need to become concert Michelle at church and meet new friends.

 

A very odd dream

 

I haven’t had very memorable dreams of late. I don’t remember them as I used to but this morning this one was odd.

 

This morning I had a very unusual dream. I was in a classroom (it looked like a stereotypical Relief Society room)  sitting next to the guy that I like and has been the source of a lot of emotional strife (on my part mostly because I have been trying to protect my heart and been hurting it more in the process, a post on that to come).

However I was pregnant, with his child wearing a beautiful maroon dress and my belly just perfectly round and cute.

The class was a marriage prep class of all things, here was I pregnant, and we sitting together (assumed married) but he answered a question and he was talking about another girl. My thought was I am right here next to you, why you are talking about another girl, I am your wife.

 

It was a very odd dream, however I did look cute pregnant.

Leave your interpretations in the comments below.

Ask me a different question

I am more than my work, I beg you to ask me a different question.

“How is work?” week end and week out.

“Fine” is all you are getting right now.

I want to tell you ohh so much more but I won’t until you ask me a different question.

How are you? How was your weekend? Anything new and exiciting?

Please ask me those questions.

I would tell you so much more.

My dog died, my uncle is missing, my grandmother is losing it, I saw a great movie and wished you were there with me.

But all you ask is, “How is work?”

“Fine.”

Men in frock coats

Most of my new favorite TV shows deal within the Victorian time period. Copper (Top) is set in New York City during the Civil War, Hell on Wheels (Bottom Right) is set just after the Civil War, and Ripper Street (bottom left) is set in 1890's.
I love these shows, they deal with intense topics and do so very well. (Just a head up, if you go looking for these shows, that most of the episodes are rating TV-14/TV-M for they deal with heavy topics)
However the one thing I love about these shows is the costuming. I am a sucker for well dressed men. I wish that men today would spend more time on their appearance and show more respect for themselves and others in the way that they dress.